The first of the year came super quick. I mean wasn’t it just the beginning of the school year? I found myself totally guilty of letting my photography page, personal page, & blog lack some new personal photos since Christmas and here is why:
I was SO burned out by the whirlwind that is the fall photography season and also the holiday season. I was having a hard time getting back on track and focusing on what I needed to be focusing on (planning themed sessions, this years schedule, writing a basic photography class/material, etc…). Looking back at where my business started I was encouraged, but also frustrated with where I was currently. I wasn’t photographing the way I wanted to. I had pushed myself into a mold and felt stuck there. I had all these rules flying around in my head of what a picture SHOULD look like and while that may sometimes be good for the portrait side of things it totally hindered me shooting anything outside of business.
I didn’t want to pick up my camera from the day after Christmas to this week for anything but my business. I was discouraged and photography was becoming a burden.. A chore.. Something I wasn’t enjoying doing anymore in my personal time because I was using my “business goggles” and seeing imperfection in the happiest of images.
So I would take a picture like this:
And I would dissect every part of the image and “see” this in my mind:
But this weekend I finally realized that I shouldn’t be worrying about perfection because my life is far from that.. I need to just start capturing my life AS IS once again.
So after that realization I could see past the imperfections, the dark shadows and just “see” this: 🙂
I had finally got back the ‘urge’ again to shoot at home. To shoot for me, to shoot for fun and to shoot without worry. I remembered my first subject, the one that I spent months and months capturing before I even opened my business. My best friend, My baby, My Tristan. I captured him being him. Playing, laughing and playing some more. Those images weren’t perfect, but they made me happy and I felt happy when I took them and saw them. It took me back to where I was around this time last year with my photography….. When I was enjoying it and it had a meaning- to capture life the way I see it. Now after almost a month of “letting my camera collect dust” I’m enjoying it again and having fun!
So much fun that I actually got it out again today and captured this of my Tristan. Just standing right inside the garage, breathing in some fresh air and just waiting for a sunny day to come his way so he could go outside to play. Simple, but a moment I would’ve missed because I was too caught up in the rules last week.
So no matter where you are on your photography journey somedays are good and some are bad. Sometimes you go a while without wanting to look at your equipment, much less use it and sometimes that only lasts a few days. My best advice for NOT feeling this way is to just try to remember what sparked your interest in the first place and go back to that place. Just do NOT let your passion fade away and don’t beat yourself up over the imperfections. I realized that in my personal life I’d rather have an imperfect picture than none at all. Just work hard + be happy!