Last year (after having Blakely) I wrote this about my business:
“I’m not quitting though..<3
My word for 2018 is intentional. I want to be intentional in all I do and all those that I get to serve. More than ever, each portrait session or wedding we book for 2018 and 2019 is so much more than a job to more something to show off in a portfolio.. They are events where I get to share love, joy and happiness with super special couples and people. If you are looking for a wedding photographer for 2018 or 2019 I would love to chat soon while your date may still be available!”
This time last year, my focus was on growing my business intentionally…. In North Carolina.
This time last year, Iowa was a state I probably couldn’t point out on a map quickly.
The time last year, Kyle’s job with Chick-fil-A was in the past, and while I knew his dream was to own his own business it didn’t seem doable anytime soon.
This time last year, I was 26 years old and had still never flown!
This time last year, I was less than two weeks postpartum, struggling with nursing, and climbing up to my heaviest weight.
But God, y’all..
Something I began to realize throughout all the changes is that God doesn’t need MY word of the year, or my own plans to make my year worthwhile. He has literally given me His own Word (the Bible) to use this year (and every year), and honestly, it’s way better than anything I can come up with! He knows what is best for me, my family, and His purpose more than I ever will. He knows that the life I have today can look much different tomorrow because of His plan for me, and no word is going to change that! Us moving to Iowa is 100% proof of that!!
By letting go and letting God, I grew more in 2018 than ever before, and it’s not because I declared a cryptic word of the year on social media…
I moved out of one of the only houses I’d known in my life. Hours and hours from family to help my husband chase a dream we felt was right for us, and I started to redefine my own “dreams”! And let me tell you… when push came to shove, my word of the year was something I had to search for on my blog to remember today.
Sure, it looked good online, or written out in pretty font, but when times got hard it wasn’t my focus. It wasn’t my purpose, it didn’t define my journey, or impact my life. I didn’t pray to it, and it didn’t give me peace in the hard times.
During all those impactful decisions God was my focus, and my purpose. He steered our family’s journey to Iowa, and back to Chick-fil-A. His wisdom that existed all around me in many words impacted my life, and He gave me great comfort in times of darkness.
Now, I don’t say this to shame anyone who has a “word of the year”. I think it’s great that you have goals and have a word to define that vision!! However, I am saying is that no matter what your word is, and no matter how much you believe in it, there needs to be that expectation that it might not fit in with God’s plan for your life this year. And that’s okay… We should expect that, and cling to Him, not a word, right? Trusting that He knows what is best for us, and knowing it’s better than anything we can plan!
I mean, this is the same God that this verse applies to:
For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
For me it’s actually been so freeing to understand that you don’t have to pigeonhole a whole year, in one word, by today. It’s freeing to know that God alone will give you peace in the changes you are bound to face this year, big or small. And it’s freeing to let Him set your direction month to month, day to day, hour to hour, minute to minute, second to second..
If you are like me and find the word of the year thing a little to hard to nail down, or don’t have peace with it, just know that it’s okay!! Your 2019 will still be filled with many ups and downs just like everyone else, but God has got your back no matter what! 💕