Yesterday, I found the journal entries I wrote when Kyle first applied for Chick-fil-A’s LDP in 2015.
I’m working on copying all off these entries over, but these words stuck out as we are praying the same way now. 💕
“Thank you for moving us one step further in this process. I pray for Kyle’s heart to be patient, and mine as well. We hope for answers soon as we come closer to making choices that effect our Fall (schedule). Please give us peace with your will, as we know either way will be rough at times.” 💕
We didn’t get the answer we thought we wanted in 2015, but from 2015 to 2018 we grew into completely different people. And also, grew a new human.. ha!
It’s EASY to tell you now that it was for the best now, but let me not so eagerly tell you that… I basically collapsed on the floor and cried #allthetears when we heard. I was a REAL pillar of strength, y’all.
I flip through these pages now, and read in this journal about how I was willing to give up on my photography business for this chance, and that was true. I was ready to hand it over for something better, but only if we got that something better now. ONLY if it was promised + waiting. I couldn’t do it if we didn’t have it. And no, I didn’t write that, but I know that’s how I felt. I just didn’t trust enough…
Now, I don’t regret those years in my business, but I do regret thinking that I may have been forcing it too much. This year, I gave it up because I know it’s what is right for my family in this season of homeschool + figuring us out… no matter what the outcome.
And I’m happy… I’ve been loving documenting our lives on here, the blog, and YouTube. .
I just hope this space is a break from the idea that you have to be a hardcore #girlboss everyday— one who is throwing her whole life into something just for a sliver of insta success. Sometimes you just need rest and prayer to find out what you are really being called to do, and that’s perfectly fine. Seek rest, seek Him, and be willing to surrender something if it feels right!
God only wants the best for us, and it’s so much more than we can imagine 🌿